MIdnight fears of adolescent death dreams, when you’re alone noone can hear you scream Pound your head against the wall Pound your head against the wall How many days until you fall, never to rise again? I don’t care Yes you do, that was all an act Remember when you used to fly? Yes, it was all that kept me from dying That was the only advantage from that vantage point That lonely age and fear of engagement Pushing them all away But there was one? Yes, once Still pounding your head against the wall? Yes, daily, it’s flagrant Frightening enlightenment? ??? Forgive and let yourself live
Trying to stay hidden away A strange woman tells me to pray How do they find me? I try to be kind but What do I do When they want to take What I can’t give? She doesn’t want to live Yet she continues wandering Asking for help that’s not coming Telling me she’s going to hell and I am too. She disobeyed the word of god What do I tell her? I don’t believe in hell? I killed god a long time ago? She doesn’t like that I’m going to hell again If she was paying attention She would have seen The flaw in my logic.
small town folk herded by television police into electrified corrals artificial fright and fantasy flights of fancy big brother isn’t watching you you are watching him watching him think for you live for you, die for you subliminally preaching the tenets of consumerist philosophy and intolerance broadcasting negatively charged transmissions disrupting the particle-wave relationship between mind and soul flip-particle-mind flip-wave-soul a positronic symphony of electro-chemical existences and symbiotic sufferings
I was looking for you while I went for coffee this morning Searching every face Again the wrong place I imagine you would be happy to know I am back in the flow The right place at the right time After all these years writing senseless rhymes Getting back home and starting to cry I realize you were the reason I wanted to die I just wanted to thank you Goodbye
These prison walls become a a sanctuary Built by my own hand Blocking out the tortured landscape of my mind Outside Clocks ticking Thoughts sticking Images breached Dark creatures speak of my soulless wandering Stop Cast a spell Time will tell Minds fire Bodies tire Sleep comes too easily Shaken Awakened Words broken Misspoken Passively absent Caressing distress Aggressively tested Death would be best Second is life The devil’s midwife Giving birth to strife Demanding to be fed Children led to slaughter Sacrificial daughters Lie down in hunger’s stead Bloody poisoned streams Fill the mouths that scream Drowning fields of dreams Up above the fray Circling birds of prey Eyes and ears of clay Smoke, ashes, dust and bones A king has fallen from the throne Rising above a windswept plain A mother’s muffled cry in vain Deny the wolf’s hunger Starving for pain
We are Most of us Subhuman Shuffling automatons Living underground Mass produced Cookie cutter minds Manufacturing demand A vocal authority Shouts down a silent minority Vilifying freethinkers Genius in museums Freaks oddities curiosities Spirits, angels and danger In a celestial sideshow
“I take one, one, one cause you left me, And two, two, two for my family, And three, three, three for my heartache, And four, four, four for my headaches, And five, five, five for my lonely, And six, six, six for my sorrow, And seven, seven for no tomorrow, And eight, eight, I forget was eight was for, But nine, nine, nine for the lost gods, Ten, ten, ten, ten for everything, everything, everything..”
Media giving voice to crackpots schemers, dreamers and fascists
A conspirational tone keeps me from answering the phone I’m trapped, bugged, I’ve been bitten (insects hasten the decay) Why am I chastened in this way?
You’re smitten You’ve written some bad shit in your day but nothing comes close to this unfortunate rhyme
Are you paying attention? Did I forget to mention?
It’s futile and fruitless ineffectual and useless This mindless dissension (Breaking the ranks) People, guns and tanks All scare tactics and hate Better get your facts fucking straight before we come with missiles over there All up in your shit Make you vanish into thin air
Did you get my missive? Do you think I’m insane? Can you hear the ticking from inside my brain?
It’s all bullshit but it depends who’s saying it tomorrow you’ll be praying it doesn’t come your way
Hoping I am socially moderate when I see your silly doctorate I don’t know what to say ‘cause I ain’t fucking literate
You expect me to hold my temper? I can’t when it’s Semper fi do or die
You’re facebooked, twittered and linkedIn everyone knows what your thinkin’ So, think or swim, my heart sinks (When I think of you)
Primordial thinking Disorderly sinking An emotional troglodyte Authoritative anger seasoned in reptilian reasoning Depression is the reward sublimated sorrow and attenuated aggression Intellectualized ativistic animism Left and right fight in a cerebral civil war While the underside feeds on the casualties This is the tone of the voices from the back of my mind
Cheating death for one more day I’m still alive but there’s a price to pay To remain evil and base With thoughts out of place Empty and soulless A zombie, a wraith Endless wandering A mind without direction Thoughts lacking The thread of connection